Something made me opened my eyes at the wrong time today. It was just 6.30 and I set my alarm to ring at 8am. At first I concluded it was the tugging pain my larynx as the only culprit. But I guess it was one of His ways again to still this restless, wriggling worm and to remind it to fix his eyes on the things it should, to spend its time reflecting and thinking like what a human is created for, instead of wriggling away in purposelessness.

I went on with my morning routine as usual, getting my boost of anti-oxidants with something from those bitter things made from coffee beans and cocoa beans. As I take sips from that soothing comfort, it suddenly dawned on me that I'm not a robot. Even robots 'oxidize' over time right? All the more the fact I'm flesh and blood, created from dust and to dust I will return one day.

I've been through about 1/4 of my life, I've got ditched and I ditched people and now settling down (hopefully) with my s/o ( as they called in dating websites), a job where I can Social-Network away while the general manager spends most of his time in the pantry and reading newspapers instead of proposal papers, I'm trying my hands discovering more about the world and to do something to change the world from the knowledge I'm trying to pursue on getting 'something higher than a bachelor's degree', I got a home, a car, and people who love me on Earth and Heaven...so what more could I ask for...right?

Yet, I'm constantly haunted and plagued by discontentment of the present and doubt and fear of the future. After the period of stability ends, will there be another war? Will there be another Great Depression? I know regardless, there will be a time when I need to make BIG decisions..decisions like, to choose between feeding the poor in Ethopia or permanently glu-ing myself to my s/o, the 2 bcome 1 tingy where no distance can seperate us...to choose the unexplored pastures which seemed greener or to settle for the current, comforting routine..

Yet I'm thankful, for any problem, any worry, any calamity..there is always the promise of the silver lining....

I'm blessed to know there's a channel I can cast all these things on.........

At the end of the day, I know, somewhere over the rainbow, where bluebirds fly and troubles melt away like lemon drops......there lies hope, and assurance..something that can never exist without His wondrous works.....It's not a physical place per say......that light in the dark tunnel is right in my own heart..

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34

"Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall."  Psalm 55:22

Wake up, little dreamer

It's time to see

It's time to touch

It's time to feel

What's really real

Thank you, Lord that You're not just any wish-granting genie in a lamp

First, You're way too big to be contained by a tiny weeney lamp

Second, I get wayyy more than 3 wishes,

Thirdly, You grant them unconditionally, not demanding any sacrificial rite but just my love

And most importantly, sometimes I don't even need to ask..

You know my wishes even before I made them :)

But perhaps the one amazing thing that made me love you more by the day is the fact that

You DON'T grant every single thing I wish...

Only those that is good to build me up, to build others up, to make this world a better place :)

What is the most wonderful wish He has ever granted you?