Something made me opened my eyes at the wrong time today. It was just 6.30 and I set my alarm to ring at 8am. At first I concluded it was the tugging pain my larynx as the only culprit. But I guess it was one of His ways again to still this restless, wriggling worm and to remind it to fix his eyes on the things it should, to spend its time reflecting and thinking like what a human is created for, instead of wriggling away in purposelessness.

I went on with my morning routine as usual, getting my boost of anti-oxidants with something from those bitter things made from coffee beans and cocoa beans. As I take sips from that soothing comfort, it suddenly dawned on me that I'm not a robot. Even robots 'oxidize' over time right? All the more the fact I'm flesh and blood, created from dust and to dust I will return one day.

I've been through about 1/4 of my life, I've got ditched and I ditched people and now settling down (hopefully) with my s/o ( as they called in dating websites), a job where I can Social-Network away while the general manager spends most of his time in the pantry and reading newspapers instead of proposal papers, I'm trying my hands discovering more about the world and to do something to change the world from the knowledge I'm trying to pursue on getting 'something higher than a bachelor's degree', I got a home, a car, and people who love me on Earth and Heaven...so what more could I ask for...right?

Yet, I'm constantly haunted and plagued by discontentment of the present and doubt and fear of the future. After the period of stability ends, will there be another war? Will there be another Great Depression? I know regardless, there will be a time when I need to make BIG decisions..decisions like, to choose between feeding the poor in Ethopia or permanently glu-ing myself to my s/o, the 2 bcome 1 tingy where no distance can seperate us...to choose the unexplored pastures which seemed greener or to settle for the current, comforting routine..

Yet I'm thankful, for any problem, any worry, any calamity..there is always the promise of the silver lining....

I'm blessed to know there's a channel I can cast all these things on.........

At the end of the day, I know, somewhere over the rainbow, where bluebirds fly and troubles melt away like lemon drops......there lies hope, and assurance..something that can never exist without His wondrous works.....It's not a physical place per say......that light in the dark tunnel is right in my own heart..

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34

"Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall."  Psalm 55:22

Wake up, little dreamer

It's time to see

It's time to touch

It's time to feel

What's really real

Thank you, Lord that You're not just any wish-granting genie in a lamp

First, You're way too big to be contained by a tiny weeney lamp

Second, I get wayyy more than 3 wishes,

Thirdly, You grant them unconditionally, not demanding any sacrificial rite but just my love

And most importantly, sometimes I don't even need to ask..

You know my wishes even before I made them :)

But perhaps the one amazing thing that made me love you more by the day is the fact that

You DON'T grant every single thing I wish...

Only those that is good to build me up, to build others up, to make this world a better place :)

What is the most wonderful wish He has ever granted you?

What I see is people living 'shallow' lives...

Sorry for being judgmental if you think I am...

But what's inside me is not condemnation of why people don't share my thoughts

But  rather a much prolonged case of depression....

not much of a clinical case, but rather a spiritual one...

I wish and I pray they see,

Empty pursuits will only lead to more emptiness.....

It dries up rather than fulfills...

They're thirst-enhancers instead of thirst-quenchers

Constant thirst, is that real happiness?

You can say "Yes, I'm contented with a simple life. Simple life pleasures makes me happy"

But are you sure those things are 100% guaranteed to make you 100% happy all the time?

My heart resounds to Stacie Orrico's lyrics of There's More to Life:

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go

[Chorus]
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

[repeat chorus]

i'm wanting more
I'm always waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....

[repeat chorus x2]

Jesus came and died for us so that we may have live more abundantly,

He's the only One who has the key to eternal happiness..

He breathes life in my past world of vacumn

And my current world is starting to sprout love, hope, joy and peace

Indeed to live for Him, brings me unspeakable joy that will never fade away

Despite many disheartening issues of the world around me,

It is that unspeakable joy that reminds me,

There's still something to live for...

Sick of pink...

Here's to a new beginning